Do you ever have those days where your just kinda there? Where nothing seems to quite fit or seem right? I'm sure you have, I know I have. It's not that your depressed, or sad, and it's not that anything really is wrong. It's just a feeling of being out of sync. Can't quite put your finger on it.
Kind of like when your hungry or craving something, but nothing sounds good. You keep trying different foods but none of them do the job for you and that craving is still there. I get that one a lot. I tend to get bored with the same foods all the time. DH got the idea one time to buy a butt load of hamburger cuz it was cheap and we didn't have much money at the time. By the second night of eating meals that consisted of hamburger I was done.
Life is funny, things can be going just great, and all of a sudden... Wham! This thing just knocks you upside the head. After getting your senses back you stand there and look around wondering what the hell just happened. People around you can tell something isn't right, but when they ask you, all you can say is, " I don't know" which sounds stupid as all hell. I mean it's you, and you should know what's going on right?
It usually doesn't last long, maybe not even a day, but it gets you thinking. Thinking about things that are going on in your life. Trying to figure out where this feeling is coming from. You start ponder on your life and how it's going. You slowly start checking off things that aren't leading to this feeling. Things like, is it your job, your spouse, your kids, you health...
You spend an enormous amount of time trying to figure out just what is wrong. For some of you it's now starting to cross the line from pondering to obsessing on it. It sometimes goes down this road for me. Now your analyzing everything with a fine tooth comb. Still getting nothing.
Then something happens for just a moment...something that makes you stop, and take notice of it. It might be your children just being goofy and cracking each other up. Maybe it's noticing a new flower in your garden that is beautiful. Maybe it's seeing a lady who looks like the world gave up on her. Maybe it's the rainbow after the rain. Maybe it's the child in the store who's crying because they want a piece of candy. It could be the old man just taking a walk and enjoying life. Then it hits you...
This thing that has been plaguing you all this time. This thing that you started becoming so obsessed about just trying to figure it out. This thing that robbed you of all this time wasted. Turns out to be so simple. So easy. Something that should be second nature for all of us.
You forgot to stop and enjoy life. Many people call it, "stopping to smell the roses". We get so busy doing our lives that we forget to just be. To live. To breathe. We forget to bask in the child's laughter. We forget to be thankful for what we have. We stop noticing others. We stop having a giving heart. We need to start living our lives, and to do that...we must stop doing our lives.
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